busy work =[

today is 27th
my babe birthday
fish fish fish
i love u waaa =]
mwarks
celebrate next time with u
because i need to work


someone promised me will let my every 27th happy
today?
aiks

giving up ?

i miss him so
alexx tan

do u miss me?


watch movie at midvalley later
with lion dance fren
my little babe jukie going too
can see her later
miss her much


i want to take mc for 3 days
im really tired
my heart dead


sunday lion dance competition
i play drum
GA YAO !








queenie's was blogging here =]

work♥

i start work since yesterday
at times square 1st floor timeless,near that "u need house"

我4个月没吃禁贫血药了
最近发觉原来蛮严重的
哮喘又来了=[
那天练狮的时候差点发作
幸好阿b哥叫我们休息
我拉着connie，她叫我去坐下

对了，我的电话有3G了=]

这份工不好，工钱超低
之前还大大声说“打死我都不做waitress!”
现在自己跑去做
因为真的没钱交学费了

今天很晕
突然什么都看不到
虽然眼睛睁开，可是只看到一片黑暗
[贫血的人都知道吧]
然后我就倒翻了面
bryan很快过来，跟我说“没事的。你去洗手先”
supervisor也没骂我
吓死我了

之后他们全部都很看我
一直叮咛我，叫我小心
不过有时真的很不爽
supervisor很像针对我酱
eva跟我说她之前给supervisor骂足一星期

明天supervisor off day
全部不要off xD
我每次都跟他们诉苦
他们说“没关系啦。明天就没事的。她没来”

烫伤了手
很痛。。。

怎么挨？
很辛苦

我不吃得苦...
打过最长的一份工都是一个月而已

希望能挨下去
如果我做工时突然晕倒会怎样呢？


做厨房那个突然走出来给我一罐糖果瓶
里面装了2支烟
哈哈

收东西的时候bryan拿一碗黑糯米给我
不好吃的><
卖剩的啦
红豆好喝点
不过都卖完的

之后mr. eng冲jasmine给我喝
我一直加糖
他说“喂！你很夸张了！喝那么甜不好嗒”
不过我都喝到很淡啊

bryan问我“你的贫血是遗传嗒”
我“不知道.可是姐姐妹妹都有.好像没比我严重”
bryan “有遗传病的女生都很美。我很多朋友都是有遗传病的。不过很可惜，病就是病”
哈哈
我的病不会死
除非太过分=]


老板也对我很好啦
只是工钱低
和supervisor不好=[

回到家
冲凉
姐姐和堂睡了
他们刚刚去mun家学做cake给妈咪

刚刚妈咪跟我说“作工辛苦吗？看到你这样很心痛..你肯定很辛苦”
我笑着跟妈咪说 “咪，我不辛苦啦”
我总是很家人面前演得很坚强
我哭也不会哭出声音

昨晚眼泪流了3小时...



明天进早班

要去休息

累死

to : alexx tan

u betrayed me twice
u hurt me badly
i keep trying to keep our love alive
you? keep throwing my heart

lately u can sleep without any stress
but how am i? did u know ?
if u dont love me , dont lie me
i dont mind if u couple with her
i already know that

i already be accustomed to let u hurt
dont say how good are her
i know she suit u , im not
yea . she's better than me

i tried to let myself live better
i hope without u im still that hopeful girl
i hope without u i can be more happy

but no ! cant !
i cant sleep well!
even i drank coke + panadol
or
beer + panadol

no feel to me
even im drunk
i still sleep with my tears

i hug ur shirt , hug ur pillow
cried madly

i know how sad am i , u wont understand
u cant know my feeling
u wont come back again

u said i have changed a lot
im better than last time
but u cant accept my wrong

hey! my wrong?!
i told u many times, is u broke up with me
i only accept other boys
so IM NOT BETRAY U!

but u ?!








boy,i dont want to be without u
i dont want a broken heart =[
im still a feeble girl

phobia♥

today went pavillion for movie - phobia 2
last 19 of aug , i watch 4 bia with alexx
this year is the continue

but when he with me
i saw he still sms with her
hurt

why should ur like this?
why after we broke still can like couple?


stop the game if u dont love me!



back to topic


yea.
after movie,my future bro-in-low sent alexx back home
then sent us back

pasar malam
i brought my umbrella which look like underwear
my sis's umbrella nice =[


bought chocolate shake and rojak


he said im fatter than last time
good
i must keep fit



this thursday going to walk moutain at cheras baru
after that swim
then practice lion dance
ready for competition =]


health day xD
better than sleep whole day at home


tmr find work
[if im not late wake up]


bored holiday

戒指`

戒指不见了
刚刚妈咪`爸爸`爷爷都帮我找
垃圾桶，厕所都找了
还是没有

爸爸说“买多一个啦”
我“你们只会说买多一个！你们知道那个意义吗？！”
我哭了..跑进房间
爸爸应该没发现

那戒指是他昨晚在我们吵架前帮我戴上的
他跟我说“不要弄不见了”

我哭着哭着
打开我的电话袋
原来我下午冲凉前放了进去


刚刚dickie打来
他和豆刚看完戏
4bia 2
我就怨他几句

他说“你们要喝茶吗？”
我“去哪里喝？”
他“不知道喔...刚和豆看完戏.不知道去哪里，所以问你们 ”
我“看什么戏？phobia 2?”
他“是啦”
我“哟....今天下午说了明晚去看的啦..你们又去看”
他“哈？是咩？叫家俊陪你去看啦”[我听了立刻流泪]
我“我和他发生酱大件事..”
他“什么事？”
我“你没看我blog咩？”
他“今天还没看。只是看了昨天的”
我“噢...”
他“做么？什么事？”
我“不要说了”
他“okay咯.我问下他们啦.等下打回给你”


没多久豆打回来
哭着跟她讲话
不过我不太想多说
就说“你们谈好了跟我说去哪里啦”



挂线了




眼泪不会停
心，更停不了爱你












原来你的坏蛋是她...
别再骗我了

home sweet home♥

well
i blog here from midnight 12.05am

yea. i dint sleep again
i wait alexx back home
but when i was using his computer to online
i saw "her" picha
i told yuki and i keep chat with her
she consoled me and acc me
im glad i have u =]

i played hotel626.com
i wanted alexx to acc me
but he back home at 2.05am
he want me to find a new bf
because he felt compunction to me
i cried , he hug me and consoled me
but i keep endure my tears and call him to bath

after he bath , sleep
he doze off but i cant
i took his phone , i saw something

then i took my phone and wallet
went to downstair took keys and went 7-11
i called yukii , she sleep =[
then i replied bibby gor's msg , i received it at 2.15am,replied at 3.25am
he called me, consoled me
i bought beer,coke and panadol

after that, alexx called me
he ask where am i and told me that his dad was finding me
his mom was worried =X
hmmm...
few anene in the white color car
they stop their car and told me "girl,ur father finding u,go home now"
not my father laa = =

i back home,i sat at dining room and drank beer
his dad ask what happen to me
and ask me izzit alexx bully me
i wanna tell his about that but dare not =[
keep on crying and quiet

he went to alexx's room and scold him useless
uhh.....confuse ..
alexx called me to his room
and ask what happened to me
i cried

thn he scold me , he turn on the light
he wanted me to keep all my things in 5mins and send me back home
after 1min , he called me to switch off the light and go his bed
he hug me , ask "why u drink beer?"
i cried , i ask him izzit want couple back with "her"
he said dont know
i shout like mad "dont leave me again!i scare!"
he promised me he wont
but i knew that he just consoled me

slept at 4.35am and woke 8am
he got to perform lion dance
thn i bck my home
i watch astro
ishhhhhhhh!!!!nothing to watch

text dickie , ask him where is he
he said coming my home
he fetch my up at 10.15am
thn went to kopitiam,kok ping and water ghost already there
wait for ah b gor
about 11.30am, we go to subang to see competition

12.05pm reach there
"rest now,competition will be continue 1.30pm" such a good news ==
wait wait wait
chat chat chat

kok ping spend us ate ice-cream =D
less lion dance team,many absent
while they on the high , i damn worried those lion dancer
many lion dancer fall down and get hurt

2.15pm
END
then went to pdn. indah old town
ah b gor praise me twice =D
many plan for HONG WU
hope 2011 years can go japan
next year go taiwan?
still dont know yet

5.30pm back home
bath
and enjoy some song

i miss alexx tan
but , he dont love me =[




i wanna be a strong girl
i wanna know how to protect myself





mami told me "if the boy leave u,he will regret"
consoled me again?



ohh...god
bless me pls TT


should i forget?
will i?

♥HAPPY B'DAY TO STEPHY

HA!
whole night cant sleep although i drank beer
dont know what feel was that
keep on cant sleep
but i was damn tired

uhh..
today morning sms with alexx
8am ++ i fall asleep rare*
9.40am woke up

bath , prepaid all the things
GOOD! all of them not yet prepare
delay to 12pm++ out

i practice my piano and waiting the time past
i delay my piano class again =[
because of stephy
but , never mind .

12.40pm
david [ tim ] fetch jukie then fetch me
he chasing jukie xD
he sent us to times square
then head to watson bought plaster
because jukie's leg get hurt by her shoes, funny ? claps* =D

wait for stephy and sumii
they follow us but we dont know xD

direct to NEWAY
and alexx went gap luii?
lols . i dont know

4 of us like no mood to sing
cant high today
what problem with us? =X

sing till 4.30pm
while going to vivo
saw clown , 4 of us like crazy
go and take balloon =D

jukie's and mine is love shape
keii get flower and sumii get dog
ahahhhaha
damn happy when i get the balloon csiao*
but i was ignore alexx
he said the only way he forgive me is want me to take one more balloon to him
that clown wont give again =[
so i gave him mine

he laugh =D
then went to vivo
saw bee buu
something bad luck to me ='[
alexx have no alternative

stephy , sry
im not purpose to hurt ur phone
sry ..

after ate
6th floor
some one sent flower to jukie
ahahhahaahhaa
funny lar weii~

bored

7pm , went to shamelin restaurant having dinner with alexx's family
10.40pm only back his house
me and him cant tahan
feeling sleepy while having dinner

now he at black and white with his fren for celebrate someone's bday
he leave me at his house alone
im waiting for him






unfortunately miika not attend today =[
yea
her new name "xie xie ni" xD





tmr go subang see competition
=D
hope see angel jie there
















stephy
sry,i cant send any gift to u
u know what happened,right?
and
happy birthday yaaa
mwarks =*

♥without u

i cant sleep without ur msg`ur voice
aiks



we're just erasing from our hearts and minds



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gonna drink beer now
i sleep with drank
G O O D C H O I C E!

single lady =[

Kelly Clarkson - Already Gone


Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories, they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye
Even with our fists held high
It never would've worked out right
We were never meant for do or die

I didn't want us to burn out
I didn't come here to hold you
Now I can't stop

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone

Looking at you makes it harder
But I know that you'll find another
That doesn't always make you want to cry
Started with a perfect kiss
Then we could feel the poison set in
Perfect couldn't keep this love alive
You know that I love you so
I love you enough to let you go

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right
When you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on
So I'm already gone

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories, they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right
When you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on
So I'm already gone






finally
i choose to leave

i cry again and again

this few night
i cant sleep
so i drank beer

am i right this time?


single can live better too

am i wrong?

im at his house
ytd nite
we chat those problem around us

finally

i gave him freedom

i hope to be with him
but what can i do now?


we broke
we're just friend

im too sensitive
i can cry easily in front of him
i can cry easiy because of love

my weakness is love

i miss ur love
i miss ur hand
i miss ur hug
i miss ur kiss
i miss ur heart
i miss all about u
i miss u
alexx tan kar choon

i wanna be more strong
be a strong girl
im so weak in ur eyes

i chg
but u nvr accept

昨晚你告诉我

你会不习惯没有我的声音

不习惯没有我的信息

不习惯没有我的关心

不习惯我的离去

可是你想要单身

你不想被绑

你说现在这样很辛苦

我珍惜和你一起的每一分每一秒

我很高兴我拥有的一切

i wont drop my tears in front of u now!

i wanna be a strong girl

can i?

i dont want other ppl worry about me

i want both of u care about me

♥可以不爱了？

我的心已经死了




他对我太好

也对我太狠





我不会忘记你
陈家俊


我爱你